The busy city of London still busking beneath me, every car that passes slowly getting my pulse kicking again. Construction cranes, high-rises, skyscrapers all stand naked in the night.

Love is uncompromising. Love is unconditional. It is a flame that can never be extinguished neither can it be lit. It was always there. It does not arrive when you earn it. It does not switch on when the results come. It is not a reward. It is the origin.

The mother root of all emotion is love. Follow any feeling far enough and you arrive there. Anger is love. Grief is love. The ambition that keeps you up at 1am not from anxiety but from genuine urgency — that is love. Love for the vision. Love for the life that exists clearly in your head even when nothing external confirms it yet.

God keeps taking us back. Every single time. After the garden of Eden. After every sin committed since. After every moment a human being chose themselves over Him and then came back hollow and He was already there. That is the most precise definition of love in existence. Unrelenting. Brutally honest. Incapable of allowing you to stay below what you were made for. Love pushes because it sees what you're capable of and it will not let you settle below it. It forces growth continually. It has no choice — that is its nature.

Why at every marriage ceremony someone stands up and says I will love you through the good and the bad. Not when it's easy. Not when you're performing well. Because love is not conditional on the version of you that's winning. It holds the version that can't get out of bed with the same force as the version on the 13th floor still building at 1am.

Genuinely love yourself.

As yourself. The love you extend outward is bounded by what you hold inward. You cannot give what you don't have. And you cannot build at the level the vision requires from a foundation of self-betrayal. Unkept promises. Performed confidence.

Everything begins when you genuinely love yourself.

Be grateful. For the access. For the wiring. For the specific way God built you to see things other people walk straight past. Gratitude is the highest frequency you can operate from because it is the honest acknowledgement that what you've already been given is enough to build everything with.

Build to the max. That is the only appropriate response to genuinely loving yourself. Not comfort. Not maintenance. The max. Because real love, the uncompromising kind will not allow you to settle below what you were made for.

It never has. It never will.

Just as it states: “Love your neighbour as yourself.” - Matthew 22:39

Stay Building.

— Tai